Doing things outside my comfort zone can sometimes trigger feelings of anxiety and make me start to have doubts about the choices I am making. The human brain gets programmed by past events, it learns what is safe and what is not. Being bold and doing something unfamiliar might alert my brain to believe that danger is at hand, and to stop what I am doing.
I will persist, and believe that I can do amazing things. I am stronger than I know.
As I get older, I realize that my life's path is not carved out in stone. I can change my reality by deciding to do something different, by doing something I love, and something I know to be true for me. Something maybe even a little risky.
For me, it starts with a clear blank page and a little imagination. As I step into each scene and start to write, I breathe life into my characters. I give them flaws and weaknesses that will make you cry for them. Then, as quickly as you can turn the page, with a twist of fate, I can make you despise them. Ever changing throughout the writing process, they can be your hero or the villain. For me, I love each one, because they are mine.
The endless hours of editing sometimes takes up more of my energy than the actual writing itself. The plot twists and turns, and there are times when I find myself fueled with such intense emotion that I am unable to step away. Then there are times when my brain is so fried from thinking, that it takes me days to get back into it again. It is a process that both scares me and exhilarates me at the same time. It has been years in the making.
Writing opens the doors of my mind where anything is possible. I have become the creator of lives that are not mine. My hero may be born out of the strengths of people I have met, or be a character completely made up from the depths of my imagination. Creating the antagonist is even more fun. Everyone loves a good villain. If my readers become so involved, that they love or hate the characters as much as I do, then I have done my job well. I want them to become fully immersed in the journey that unfolds before them on every page.
Writing is my passion. I love to think of nothing else. For me, it is more like therapy than work. If what I write is read by no-one else but me, I will still continue to write. All authors start somewhere, and for me, this is only the beginning. I will only fail if I give up... I will never give up.
Above all... Once upon a time... you will have to wait and see!
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